Selamat tinggal rumahku

This is the last entry. I'm very sad because I'm missing him, my late beloved brother. Insya'Allah, I will create new blog, named as MyloveHajiIshakclan.blogspot.com. Alhamdulillah, Allah gives an opportunity to use my last call (talian hayat). Maafkan saya jika sepanjang blog ini ditulis, pembaca terguris dengan saya. Saya juga harap apa yang baik dapat dikongsi, yang buruk dapat tolong maafkan dan doakan saya sentiasa dalam hidayahNya. Mungkin ini sebagai peringatan bagi saya bahawa takdir Allah mengatasi kemampuan kita dan sesungguhnya percaya pada Qada' dan Qadar Allah itu adalah benar.

Lastly, Selamat tinggal rumahku rendanghitam.blogspot.com

Ummi's milk 2

After browsing some blogs, journals etcs from the other mums, I noticed that the childcare system in Malaysia is still not safe for baby and toddler.

At the nursery, it is true the number of staff is more than one baby sitter. However, it is not fully satisfied me that all of them is fully occupied with knowledge and good in practice nursing our children. I had my experienced with them before. Sometimes, I just ignored somethings which were not satisfied me. For example, I'd told them that my baby don't really need the swing to sleep, however they refused my notice. So, everyday I drove to the nursery 3 times with some reasons;
-to breastfeed Ammar whilst spying the staff. I witnessed the unexpected tragedy like broken swing(baby felt down and loudly screamed). And of course the parent was not been told( since no receipt of accident). All the babies and todds were feeding with solid food using same spoon and bowl, so now wonder how fast the flu, fever spread around them. Sometimes, the same towel was used for the babies. I was surprised because I often put a clean towel everyday in Ammar's bag. So, what is our duty for these thingy.

At the baby sitter house
- I don't really sure about this. But I'm fully believe the system is similar at the nursery but one lady has to take care a few children with some help from her own children and spouse.

Wahai ibu and ayah kat luar sana, kita perlu analyse semua benda nie balik.

Ummi's milk

I started breastfeed my baby last ten years ago. Ummphh...In 2001, breastfeeding was still not such a common task among mum in this country. However, I determined that my baby will only have my milk ..and no formula is allowed in their daily meal up to 6 months. After age of 6 months, I gave Ammar some puree foods like mix fruits, fish, meat and rice. As usual people, will keep asking one big question....
"badan kurus...ada susu ke?
"banyak ke air susu?

Well, I can't answer their question in a solid words. But, Ammar's body and his health answered them all. Ammar had his first fewer when he was one year and three months. He grew well with his weight at about 7 kg when he was 4 months old, and then his weight increased fast until he stopped breastfeed at 4 years old.

Similar routine, I applied to Farhan and I can claimed both boys have such a beautiful life with my milk nurturing them. I even breastfed two boys at one time and I enjoyed it much.

Now, Sufi has all the milk from me. And her growth does amazed me. She is such a happy sweet girl. Yeah, she started to crawl now with her age is only 4 months old. Can share me with her brothers. Of course, I usually let her sticking on my milk whilst helping her brothers with their homework. thanks to my pink pouch which assist me well in this multitasking job.

So, the moral of this entry...don't giving up your honour of milking your baby. Don't be stress thus it may reduce your milk production. Alhamdulillah, I can pump my milk up to 4 times a day with 10 oz(300 ml) in one session, hence I have my milk storage at least 200 oz everyday(accumulated from last two weeks storage).
Don't underestimate yourself....kurus x semestinya x ada susu. Pray to Allah and believe yourself. Yes I can!!!

Till next entry...since I have to pump my milk now before it burst...

Kasih suami dan ayah

Saya amat rasa terharu dgn Bersamamu mlm ini. Seorang bapa dan 2 anak lelaki hidup miskin. Anak pakcik ini nampak baik dan mendengar kata. Mungkin ini nikmat Allah bagi pada mereka kerana redha dan yakin dengan kuasa Allah. Saya mahu anak2 saya merasa apa yang saya rasa. Mereka amat bertuah hidup senang dan ini buat saya risau. Pakcik ini bagi saya amat cinta dan sayangkan arwah isterinya. Semua buat saya amat bersyukur menonton bersamamu malam ini. Suami saya nampak biasa aje. Doa saya, pak cik dan anak2 ini dapat hidup lebih baik kerana mereka buat saya sedar tentang kasih sayang.

My precious children

My life is full of colours after my daughter was born. Day and night is complementing each other with so many things in mind and on going. The boys are growing up so fast with myself still prefer them to keep cute and small. My husband is trying to some effort to gain a more professional part of his work title. So, its only me have to cope with my task as a multitasking mum. To keep our family bond with full of love and responsibility, we decided,either me or my husband must alternately manage the kids and the households. Thus, putting our life as a traveling family almost every weekend. Every two weeks, my husband will doing his off campus lecturing in Kuala Lumpur. In addition, he will also required to establish his research work. As an advantage, he can bring his family along and keep us safe in at least 3 star hotel. So, I will occupy my time with the kids around the hotel like swimming, playing and etc. Don't be surprised, I'm now carrying my DSLR which nearly turn into tukun lipas after returned back from England. I believe I have improved my skill of photography including indoor and outdoor photoshot. I've done my correction and waiting an approval from the examiner. Hence, I have more time starting new research and get my skill of teaching. Till new entry, pls enjoy the pictures of my kids.

7 years + 1 day = 21 January 2011

This confinement is such a new experience for me. My mum was already back to her house last three weeks ago, which means I have to do so many thing. Yup, RNM is always with me. He is the one who prepare my breakfast, lunch and dinner, prepare my air mandi(akar kayu). He is also sends and picks the boys to and from the school. I only do my routine like bertungku (morning and evening), bertangas, breastfeed fifi, do the EBM (nak penuh dah storage in a week) and keep my pantang. Alhamdulillah, my weight is decreasing to 41 kg after a week the baby was born. But i need to put more weight up to 45 kg. Fifi is now 4.8 kg as she is already 31 days. So, I have no extra time for blogging particularly about my labor. Well to keep the story short and light, I rather put them as follows:

- admitted to the hospital since I'd already overdue
- the baby was breach and there was no sign of giving birth
- the gynae suggested for ECV (pusing baby), I had this experienced with Ammar last 11 years ago, or C-section
- I agreed foe doing the ECV first
- However, the baby turned to the right position, one hour before the ECV procedure, so the gynae suggested for normal, so I was waiting, waiting and waiting.
- The nurses said they noticed a regular contraction on CTG machine, but I didn't felt it (mcm x rasa apa2) and refused for any seluk2 tu.
- so I need to stay one more night at the hospital. If there is no shows or anything, they will do the induction procedure
- that night, I recited the quran as much as I can, did the taubat, hajat as well
- Alhamdulillah, at 4 a.m, there was a sign(blood), so I waited till the next day
- By 8.00 a.m, the gynae said , the cerviks was already 3 and waiting until I feel the contraction. But they already prepare me to labor room at 11.00 a.m
- so, I rang my husband
- mcm xcaya, sbb x rasa sakit, so they sent me to labor room and I refused for the induction and requested for natural birth, and the doctor agreed.
- after 3 p.m, I felt the contraction and was ready to push after half an hour
- Alhamdulillah, fifi out of my body at 3.53 p.m with the help of three nurses and RNM (sbb doctor x sempat)
-to my roommates (wad 4A), congratulations for your baby. She was being my good friend at the hospital. She delivered the baby by C-Section on the same day. She was waiting for a new baby after 12 years. To Che Ayu, take care.