My blog is so silent and gleamy as expected....Well, I have multiseries of task to do...and definitely to complete them. Yeah, that is so determine. Apologies...I've blocked myself from facebook, yahoo chat, phone messaging and anything that can put in such leisuring and playfull. I don't say, those who are facebooking, chatting etc. have no motivation or lazy. But is only me, who can't resolved the situation apart. So, make myself grounded with the fundamental of microscopy, adavnced statistic and so merangkak writing will put me in the dedicated focus. But I'm not sure I can. No one has any hold over me, no one can call me up and demand my presence. This is my time..my only own time heading my degree.uhhh, I can feel muscles twinging with pain all over my body. But I must work, work and work. I give myself six months to finish, to have such breezy life after study, to be more happier ever after, to be in the right track as a mum, to fly back to lovely homeland,and the must do....to conceive my twins, Insya'Allah. The magic word for me, nothing is impossible but keep myself more closer to Allah does fixed my confidence. I've read my friend's blog about 4 weeks ago. She is likes me, struggling and juggling over the study and so undomestics goddess as mum and wife. She puts herself in every second remembering Allah.For example, she have her own style of doa
"Ya, Allah, hari ini saya nak buat lab dengan microscope. Numerical Aperture kecik tapi saya minta dapatlah saya sikit data yg cantik utk statistic analysys saya. Ya, Allah tolong saya. Ya Allah, mudahkan urusan saya dan kuatkan ingatan saya padaMu Ya Allah"
I do implement the same method as her and Alhamdulillah, it's seemed does improved my work and also my ibadah. Dulu lewat solat, malas tahajud...Now, I can feel the difference. As I noticed, I'm always want to fulfill my dream but restrict myself from The Almighty. Any difficulties in life shouldn't demolished our ibadah to negative error bar (this is also statistic) but should rising the count of ibadah towards akhirat. Perhaps, I can practice this new focus of life in obtaining my glory future ever after etc.long lasting attitude.
To all...I do luv you all, longing of our pickled sweety juicy moments. Don't worry I'll come back to facebook, chatting after 6 months. Till then, take care, be happy and doakan I yea...muahhhhh(I will blogging in case updating my situation)
Salam Ramadhan semua
Siang hari kita berpuasa
Malam pula kena cergas beribadat
Kalau sapa buat kuih raya
Bagile kami sikit kuih tart
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