Me think

Since the last two weeks ago, I dreamed about the death kept flashed on me. It wasn't me or my family. But, my heart felt undesirable and there was such sad field inside me .

I couldnt help but asked myself- What is this  becoming into?. I had this feeling and such nightmare dream since age 16. Usually, after a week, I heard something happened....I talked about this with my ustazah, and she preferred me to enhance the rate of my ibadah...A day before my best friend died in her labor, I kept crying for nothing and dreamed of her. As I admit, I'm not the one who can simply put my tears out. The night before my late abah passed away, I heard people recited the yassin all around my house. Last week, one of our foster brother left this world after his solemnization. I did dreamed of someone dying since two weeks ago and tied my self busy on thinking about my family. I'd been so silent and worried.

One thing, I will never decline that I'm getting older...but I'm not really eveready for all the kindness thing for my life after death. I'm just worrying about my study, career, properties and family, and let them conquered me in 80 %. Thus left the 20% for my preparation. I'm thinking about migrate myself to a new type of life. I can see the same feeling in my husband, he is trying to pull us back to the right route of life. Not ever skipped his Dhuha, and tahajud in every night. We've managed to do our fasting every thursday. Encourage the children about islamic life, not restricted to just knowing doa makan, tidur.etc. but globally clocked to islamic family attitude and life in every angle. Alhamdulillah, my husband finally found someone, who can lead him and us to a better life. More doing our family halaqah. I found one book, that really interest me from muslim author..Mrs Zabrina. Can't wait for it to safely handed into my house, Insya'Allah.

I qoute this word from someone"
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I'm may be seen changed, but I'm still the one who you know before...but will try reducing my LARA habit , so do with my blog. Make doa for me